{"id":20096,"date":"2013-09-10T10:25:58","date_gmt":"2013-09-10T14:25:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/?p=20096"},"modified":"2013-09-10T10:35:17","modified_gmt":"2013-09-10T14:35:17","slug":"classroom-contemplations-why-one-teacher-left-the-classroom-to-work-with-death-row-inmates","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/09\/10\/classroom-contemplations-why-one-teacher-left-the-classroom-to-work-with-death-row-inmates\/","title":{"rendered":"Classroom Contemplations: Why One Teacher Left The Classroom To Work With Death Row Inmates"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_20100\"  class=\"wp-caption module image left\" style=\"max-width: 300px;\"><a class=\"fancybox\" title=\"A former Miami-Dade teacher says she got little help dealing with the stress of teaching.\" href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/files\/2013\/09\/9-10_TeacherStress.jpg\" rel=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-20100\" alt=\"A former Miami-Dade teacher says she got little help dealing with the stress of teaching.\" src=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/files\/2013\/09\/9-10_TeacherStress-300x199.jpg\" width=\"300\" height=\"199\" srcset=\"https:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/files\/2013\/09\/9-10_TeacherStress-300x199.jpg 300w, https:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/files\/2013\/09\/9-10_TeacherStress.jpg 500w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><p class=\"wp-media-credit\">Kendra Martinez \/ Flickr<\/p><p class=\"wp-caption-text\">A former Miami-Dade teacher says she got little help dealing with the stress of teaching.<\/p><\/div>\n<p dir=\"ltr\"><em>Editor\u2019s note: Names of teachers and students have been changed.<\/em><\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\" id=\"docs-internal-guid-6a3b0989-0838-e3df-fef7-fad698dcd7d0\">Marie Roberts is the kind of person most education policy-makers dream of attracting to the teaching profession. \u00a0\u00a0She intelligent, sensitive and able to handle a classroom full of teenagers. She is herself a public school graduate and an Ivy League-educated woman of color.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">She\u2019s also the teacher highlighted in an earlier post about adding value &#8212; the teacher whose students demanded \u201csmall books.\u201d She responded by securing a class set of novels to help them experience an authentic reading experience.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">But despite her commitment to children and to education, she left the classroom after three years.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cI left teaching because I didn\u2019t know how to make it sustainable,\u201d she told me. \u00a0\u201cI didn\u2019t have the resources or the tools professionally or emotionally [to deal with] all the demands of the students that weren\u2019t just academic or even just social. \u00a0There was always more work to be done\u2014I never felt a task was complete. \u00a0There was always more.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Many new teachers often feel overwhelmed because, like Roberts, they are often assigned to the most difficult schools. \u00a0Her first year was in a large high school in a high-poverty neighborhood in Miami-Dade County.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\"><!--more--><\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cI had around 230 kids a day,\u201d she said. \u201cIt took me a month to learn their names and they were shifting in and out. I didn\u2019t know what I was doing. The way the system is designed was flawed. Classes were too big, the demand was too much, and no one was teaching me how to work within these demands.\u201d<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Roberts made it through her first year and was able to transfer to another school. She spent her next two years at an alternative school, a place for students who had been kicked out of other high schools. She had a little over half as many students as before and she found the student load more manageable. She said the experience showed her that class size matters tremendously.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\"><div class=\"related-content alignleft\"><h4 class=\"related-header\">Related<\/h4><div class=\"links\"><h5>Posts<\/h5><ul><li class=\"link\"><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/08\/30\/classroom-contemplations-teacher-left-because-it-was-hard-to-hone-my-craft\/\">Classroom Contemplations: Teacher Left Because &#8220;It Was Hard To Hone My Craft&#8221;<\/a><\/li><li class=\"link\"><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/08\/13\/classroom-contemplations-how-teachers-find-success-from-failure\/\">Classroom Contemplations: How Teachers Find Success From Failure<\/a><\/li><li class=\"link\"><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/07\/24\/classroom-contemplations-helping-students-find-their-voice\/\">Classroom Contemplations: Helping Students Find Their Voice<\/a><\/li><li class=\"link\"><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/07\/11\/classroom-contemplations-overlooking-the-value-of-veteran-teachers\/\">Classroom Contemplations: Overlooking The Value Of Veteran Teachers<\/a><\/li><li class=\"link\"><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/2013\/07\/08\/19443\/\">Classroom Contemplations: Little Books, Big Statement<\/a><\/li><\/ul><\/div><div class=\"topics\"><h5>Topics<\/h5><p class=\"topic\"><img class=\"alignleft\" src=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/files\/2013\/06\/jeremy-2011-117.jpg\" height=\"60\" width=\"60\" \/><a href=\"http:\/\/stateimpact.npr.org\/florida\/topic\/classroom-contemplations\/\">Classroom Contemplations: Education Policies From A Teacher&#8217;s Perspective<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Even with the smaller load, Roberts found her responsibilities enormous.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cWith teaching it\u2019s not just the hours, it\u2019s the caring. Even when you aren\u2019t grading papers, you\u2019re still caring. [It\u2019s] not just personal issues, but how you\u2019re going to engage a particular class, how you\u2019re going to get them to respond.\u201d<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">But the personal issues of students did take their toll. Roberts shared a particularly difficult situation she faced.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cOne day I learned that one of my student\u2019s mother\u2019s boyfriend had set her up to be gang raped and she had to fight her way out of it. \u00a0I cried for 20 hours.\u201d<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Roberts told me she went to a colleague who tried to help her separate from her emotions, and to channel her emotions into action as a teacher. But Roberts found this difficult. She could never get her job or her students off her mind.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cThere\u2019s never any putting it down and, unfortunately, no one ever talks about that,\u201d she said. \u00a0\u201cEven most teachers. We struggle on our own.\u201d<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Ultimately, after three years, Roberts chose a different struggle. She chose to pursue a career in law and is currently defending clients on death row. \u00a0(She told me, laughing, that she\u2019s not as intimidated by her clients \u2014 death row inmates \u2014 as she was by some of her students. \u00a0Despite the stress of her current job, she finds it less overwhelming.<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u201cOne law firm I interviewed with, when they asked why I left teaching, I told them the workload was too intense. They pointed out that the workload for lawyers could get intense as well, and I laughed. I stand by that. Lawyering is not as much work as teaching.\u201d<\/p>\n<p dir=\"ltr\">The week we talked she had pulled three all-nighters working for a client on death row with life-threatening health issues. \u00a0And yet she was very clear about the relative demands of her three years in the classroom.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt\u2019s the hardest job I ever had,\u201d she told me.<\/p>\n<p><em>Jeremy Glazer is a Miami-Dade teacher writing about classroom issues for StateImpact Florida. Want to sound off on something Glazer has written? Want to suggest a topic for him? Send us an email at Florida@stateimpact.org and put \u201cClassroom Contemplations\u201d in the subject line.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Editor\u2019s note: Names of teachers and students have been changed. Marie Roberts is the kind of person most education policy-makers dream of attracting to the teaching profession. \u00a0\u00a0She intelligent, sensitive and able to handle a classroom full of teenagers. She is herself a public school graduate and an Ivy League-educated woman of color. 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